Happy Alone

Their entity that I thought
would protect me
once punched me in the face
and knocked me down to the floor.
On days like this I wonder
was I actually wrong in loving
two souls at once, differently?
I'm cursed
I curse my heart for falling
in pit so deep.
And you know what's the worst part?
I'm not falling alone,
I jump taking those
two souls with me.

Can you just believe
how you once wished
every happiness for them
and how you were the reason
for every bad thing they had to go through.
Perspectives, angles, thoughts, beliefs,
love, sympathies, punishments,
guilt, pain, suffering everything
you felt when you were with them.
When you made them your backbone
but now all you hope is to leave
their life on their own because
you think you are a punishment
to them of your own sins.
Who do you love more?
Whom can you leave?
Whom do you wanna spend all your
whole life and thousands of
such questions I can't answer.
But you know what's the point
when you have made up your mind
to be happy alone?