I haven't ever been in a relationship.

Why, they ask! I used to reply that it scares me. The feeling of being that attached with someone or I have seen like so many relationships fall apart and I didn't wanna do that to myself.

It's because you haven't found the one, they said. And the conversation ended with a laughter.

Only yesterday I put a thought to it, Why am I single?

And the answer amazed me.

I am single not because I haven't found the one, but because I am still finding myself. I am still learning what works for me, what puts me off, what makes me happy or sad or disheartened. I am still trying to accept my flaws, still making peace with my compulsive behaviour, being proud of my evolution and acknowledging the things I hate about myself.

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I am on the path of self acceptance.

Yes, I'll probably find the one but before I do that, I've got to be "The One" for myself.

The one I would know and accept everything about and I'll love wholeheartedly.

Cause in turn to someday love another, we've got to start by being our own lovers.

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Sahil Bhusal  •  1w  •  Reply
I guess you replied to my discussion... Why isn't it showing up here to me...?
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Sahil Bhusal  •  1w  •  Reply
Yes, I'll probably find the one but before I do that, I've got to be "The One" for myself. The one I would know and accept everything about and I'll love wholeheartedly. Cause in turn to someday love another, we've got to start by being our own lovers. - if you keep yourself first then you are not building a base to "love" others.. since you love yourself so much you would never give up yourself to sacrifice any of your loved ones... jesus said there is no greater love than a friend lays his life for a friend..
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Sahil Bhusal  •  1w  •  Reply
I am on the path of self acceptance. - humble yourself enough .. that you may be disgusted by your flaws and sin that you've done against the holy God you are never enough.. you lack wisdom..
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Sahil Bhusal  •  1w  •  Reply
I am still trying to accept my flaws, still making peace with my compulsive behaviour, being proud of my evolution and acknowledging the things I hate about myself. - if you have flaws and bad fruits you should technically work on yourself... rather than boasting about it.. there is no single shred of toxicity in a person who humble him/herself and..since you like staying wrong and misguided in your own vision i guess you don't want to be submissive to any of your loved ones also don't need any one to correct you guiding you to what is right and what can help to workout between a relationship of two people...
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Sahil Bhusal  •  1w  •  Reply
I am still learning what works for me, what puts me off, what makes me happy or sad or disheartened. - CH spergeon said "dont live to be happy but to be righteous becasue your happiness can come from both good and evil but righteousness always comes from good how Good because God is good
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Sahil Bhusal  •  1w  •  Reply
I am single not because I haven't found the one, but because I am still finding myself.- this sounds more like self discovering philosophical journey rather than a mutual couping of two partners...
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I haven't ever been in a relationship. Why, they ask! I used to reply that it scares me. The feeling of being that attached with someone or I have seen like so many relationships fall apart and I didn't wanna do that to myself.... "well 1st i guess you should know the true meaning of love and im not talking about the 'worldly love'. but the true one.. you need to know something's epistemology before you delve in to them.. -
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