I Don't Wanna Go Back....

I don't wanna go back

Just when I am about to fall in love

This time with myself

This time with reality not the fantasy stuff

I don't hate the girl anymore who looks back through the polished glass

I am improving I guess

No, I know it for sure at last

But insecurities don't fade away this soon, do they?

Is it ok to still get vulnerable at times?

Or am I getting delusional?

Is it ok if I still write some emotional rhymes?

Should I talk? Should I ignore?

Where do I find the correct answer,

When I get second thoughts out of the blue?

I swear I wanna live

Far away from frown and distress

Smiling and giggling through this journey

I don't wanna go back to the mess.