Random Rant.

I'm confused. Am I the only one or is there more people like? Starting from high school I thought I knew what I want, what I want to do in future. I was sure life after high school was going to better. I thought I would be free from all the unnecessary gossips, superficial thoughts, comparing who is slim ,who is pretty ,who had a better boyfriend. Ugh..

Then suddenly all this was all over within just 2 years which felt like 2 months. Results were out many were satisfied others were disappointed and few didn't give af. Following this ,'applying for a college ' was a thing. Comparing amongst ourselves who got into what field everyone was excited ,nervous, sad, jealous, a whole lot of emotions.

College began, which at first seemed fine. New life, new place and new surroundings. Days ,months passed and slowly I started to feel so disconnected. College seemed pretty much the same, I stopped being enthusiastic about the subjects I took up. Since college years are passing by I have this huge question in my mind 'What the hell am I doing? '. Nothing feels good. The subjects I took up are suddenly boring, social life is almost zero at this point, things I liked to now are all rusted. When I see my friends, everybody is doing something. They have it planned and set. So at the end of the day the question is what do I really want do in life?