Letter #1

To all the friends I've had before,

This is a letter of thanks for what you all have done for me and to me. I would like to take a moment to first thank you all for coming into my life and lighting it up with your unique characteristics. Thank you for holding my hand and letting me know that no matter what happens someone is willing to be by my side. Thank you for wiping my tears and lending a shoulder to cry upon. Thank you for all the talks and advises which ultimately were futile because I never listen to anyone except myself. Also, thank you for showing me that there are people in the world, ready to deceive others, just for the sake of themselves. Just like you all.

You all had done a brilliant job of fooling me and making me believe that you were my friend, for me and me only. However, later I realized that was never the case. You all had chosen me to be your friend for your benefit. It's disgusting but it's true. And I pity myself for not understanding this before. I had to wait for all of you to stab me in the back for me to understand what I meant to you all.

People say that coming out of a relationship hurts. But clearly they haven't come out of a best friendship yet. Because trust me, it hurts more. So much more. The person you trusted with your life becomes the one to slit your throat without a second thought. How can you live with that? How can you ever trust someone else after that? Trust is a very fragile thing. Once it's broken it can never be mended back to what it was. And the same thing happened to me.

I trusted every one of you and in return all I got was pain, sadness and hurt. I got nothing but betrayal and it stung me the most. I tried everything and did everything I could to make you happy and to be there for you. Yet you all found a reason to trick me and take advantage of me in every possible way.

At first, all I could think was of the negative aspects of losing you all. But then one day I realized that despite all the negativity, there's a positive side to this. So, I am glad you all did this. If it weren't for you all, I wouldn't be who I am today. Stronger, more independent and wise. I became strong after facing all of your betrayals. I became more independent by understanding that no one is there for you in this world except for the one who gave birth to you. And I became wise in selecting the ones with whom I could share things with.

Even though you all tried your level best to destroy me and my trust, I have come out of it stronger than ever. I have come out of that black hole consisting of lies, deceit and secrets, brand new. And I have no one else to thank but all of you.

So thank you again, for all the things you've done for me and to me. Thank you for building me, shaping me and making me who I am today. I hope someday you understand that you were in the wrong. And when that someday arrives, I promise to be there for you. Because no matter what transpired between us, I really did consider you all to be my best friends.

From,

The one who trusted you too much.