Un-Shattered Pain

As un-shattered it was bearable at best. No it was not the pain of losing her nor was it the pain of living without her it was the pain of not being able to feel her presence in everything else everywhere i go i used to see her i used to imagine having a life without her being in pain, imagining what it mean being without her waking up without hearing her voice in my ears waking up without her being blabbering about me to wake up; i miss it and this pain wont let me forget her the pain i am so in love with that it won't let go of me and i have become lazy enough to not let go.

People ask me why is that you have that un-shattered pain inside of you and i keep them in circles yes i am guilty of letting down a lot of people a lot of them close one’s, strangers, loved once and maybe i just want to keep my pain to me i don't think anyone could understand anyone’s pain no matter how close that person you are you maybe living with them feeling for them maintaining a distant with which both of you are pleased it still won't be enough to make them yours.

We love those who are broken, shattered into pieces because we see ourselves in those people, those who have been falling for all the more wrong people but with a right heart and they pounder over what they have lost their pain cannot be understood by other people who have fallen for, some other misery of which they had been dealing with ages its the need of the human heart to make it feel comfortable with people with the same pain as ours.

Becoming a stranger made me realise that a number of wrong people are not what they seem and a number of right people are exactly what they are losing the right mind of those makes it devastating to deal with all the anger the un-shattered pain neither acceptable nor rejectable puts you in a state of comotosis from where you can neither recover nor stand up for yourself but that pain is what makes you stronger than the person next to you, the lost might never return but what they taught will always remain with us no matter where we are or will be their essence is what will make us recall them in the time of deepest despair and the best thing is once you are strong enough to stop looking for other people with pain and let them follow you as an example.