He sits when everyone sleeps, he struggles when everyone is at ease he doesn’t laugh with his guys they think he’s a serious guys that is why he won’t laugh he makes them believe that what they think is the truth, it's not easy being him, he works hard to pay up for his guys he’s have had dreams he couldn’t fulfill but wants his children to fulfill their dreams, he never hides his life from his guys he gives them everything he has struggles to sleep daily but it became his habit when he became a father it became a cruel habit like like of smoking cigarettes can’t leave em because you love them once started but they does relieve your pain in certain ways i've seen people forgetting years of pain after a single puff of smoke the struggle the sufferings the unshattered pain

He smokes to make his struggle affirmative as a reminder like we pinch oneself when we can’t believe what is happening this happened to him so fast he could not reminisce that moment so that he won't forget what he has to do for his guys he smokes in the stress of his family and relive his suffering at the same time which makes him a hero without a cape,

He’s a hero with a cause the cause not every hero can follow a cause that brings sufferings from all the squares but he enjoys, he enjoys when his children eat when they smile when they call me papa, abba jaan, dad, bapu whichever way it may be the mere presence of his loved once make him forget all the pain his cigarette becomes wet and falls down on the floor when his children make him smile and that my friend is the moment he is relieved from his pain his pain, his wicked pain which could never be shared falls into eternity when laying on his back chair he smiles at his child and his child smiles back at him even from a distance he’s happy he’s happy that his legacy will live on and those cigarettes have no meaning to him because at last he is relieved off of his pain.

In conclusion the word father has a heavier weight on his own strength, the more responsible he owns the more he is soft towards everything without even showing how hurt he is.

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