Something is standing still
around or in me,
I don't know.
But something is,
that could be a world in which heaven is lost
or a world which has fallen into the pits of hell
or even the end of my will
or my soul.
For the first time in my conscience,
my mind follows my heart
gets put to sleep alongside my body,
knows the name of the water deep..
deep within lies the secrets of the universe
or are they shadows of the darkness I've come across,
now that all the water is still
and seems no more to be water
just like my will of tears unshed
This isn't my will- is not my birth.
And for the first time in so long
I can see the worth of things,
the size and purpose of stars,
and of our earth in the skies,
and my own life - a useful yet useless speck apart,
and very far.
And for the first time in forever
I cannot tell,
what all this is
and what I am in this-
a heartbeat or a sham,
life of another will or
will of another life
yet my own unknown.
Something I feel,
better left unknown.
If all is not lost yet,
I am still here
at a stand still.