Dear First Love

I cheated.
I remember when I told you you were irreplaceable, trust me I meant it.
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I know you don't want an excuse and I'm not giving you one, but I need to get this of my chest.
And please, please don't treat me like one of those many nameless faces that pass by you. I mean we had something special right?

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I still remember each vein and dead end like the back of my hand, but they don't feel the same. I miss you, I really do.

Look I don't know how it happened. You were so far away and I was lonely. I didn't even realise how slowly I was letting go of you and you were of me. I really didn't realise when I started calling this city home and trust me I was as surprised as you when I started getting that......that feeling of home from this city.

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I'm sorry childhood city, I wish I could stay, trust me I do. After all you were my first love.But I have grown up now and you don't feel like home anymore.You don't call out to me to return anymore like you used too.

Its time to move on.. But hey, it isn't you its me. And I hope you find someone better.

Love,
A person who left.