A Birthday Without Her.

No, don't make scenarios. I am 500 miles away from home as you read this. I am away from mum. In a gazillion years i never thought there would be a birthday without her by my side. No gifts, no surprises just her sheer presence;I would trade that for anything in the world right now. That's what i have always wished for;for her to be my side always. She is most easily my bestfriend, the love of my life and my heartbeat. What are birthdays when you are lifeless. I miss her terribly. At this moment when life is holding on to its last drop of strength Ionly wish i never have to celebrate any such lifeless and pointless birthdays anymore.I am not a big sucker for my birthdays, but yes it wouldn't make me as terrificly happy as i get when she wakes me up on birthdays with a kiss.My only favourite part of the day(yup, food too). We need that touch from someone we love just as much as we need air to breathe. I believe i am few of those lucky people on the planet of the millenial generation to know what value mothers hold.I think this is also because we together have been through deepest lows and soared high on happiness together. Together.It's been a week now,I still have 12 days to kill; do you understand 17, 280 minutes more until i press myself in her arms and cry my lungs out. No, not because i am unhappy here;just because of the fact that i miss her terribly. I miss gossiping with her now,(she told me she does too),I miss seeing her laugh.So on my 19th i won't pray to give me strength to bear this but instead i never have to celebrate anysuch birthdays anymore without her. Just wish her abundance health, happiness and strength to laugh on my jokes.

Love, love.