Depression And Me (Chapter 2)

The first chapter of this story, Depression And Me( Chapter 1)...

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I decided to fight my own war even though the enemy smirking at the opposite end is me again.

After the countless number of sleepless nights, fruitless days, I started to sort out things.

Maybe from movies or from your friends, you might have already known that the nights are hardest for a person in Depression. You can't sleep, you can't do anything productive, no one's available to talk to. You are all alone in a room filled with negative thoughts and forces being emitted by your own brain.

Sensing the universal and most common point of'When do humans sleep like they don't care about anything else?' , the simple question gave me the answer. When the body is completely drained and there no more energy left to further feel sad. Yeah, you guessed it right, I've joined a gym and voluntarily picked up the early morning sessions to train. This is where I am lucky to be a middle-class Indian. As I have paid money, I would feel bad if I don't go to the gym, so irrespective of what happens in the night, whether I sleep or not, I started going to gym at least 5 times a week.

This was a big step up for me, getting too tired in the day time, a reason to sleep at night, made it better for me to sleep peacefully in the nights. If I don't sleep well in the night, I will surely fall asleep in the morning, which means I will lose attendance and couldn't sleep in the night as peacefully as I can. if I don't sleep in the morning times.

Being able to get up soon and early in the morning has it's own significance which cannot be missed in anyone's life, no matter what one is going through. Despite being a nocturnal person, I enjoy the romantic early morning weather and I find it inspirational.

So the look of an Insomnia patient on the face was gone within 2 weeks. No more dark circles, devil-like look on my face.

But I knew that this was just the beginning to the end of my sorrows and grief. The feelings of deeper grief and sorrows are like a ball thrown to a wall, the faster you throw it away, the faster it comes backs at you.

To be continued in Chapter 3...