Depression And Me (Chapter 1)

' How can a person find happiness if all the things that used to make him happy don't make him feel happy anymore? '

Depression - This mental disorder has been growing wide in recent times and it is estimated that approximately 350+ million are suffering from Depression.

The causes can't be simplified easily and are speculated to be a complex combination of biological, genetical, psychosocial, environmental factors...

Even though it's becoming popular and widespread, people still think depression means locking themselves up, cryinglike babies, taking drugs. But let me tell, you guys, it has been changed now and we have a generation of depressed people socializing, laughing more than the normal ones.

Depression can be so dangerous when you don't even know you are undergoing it.

Recently, I was a person who found his soulmate and is in a happy relationship, good college grades, even though not a luxurious life, had what is enough to live, I found myself losing interest in movies, hanging out with friends and even going back home from the hostel.

Whenever I tried to watch a good movie or talk with friends, the family I felt empty. Completely void as if there is not even an atom size soul inside me present.

It was one of the times in my life where I won everything but still, kept losing myself.

I tried reasoning myself, Why am I going through this?

What is causing this trauma?

I have such great friends, family, girlfriend, but what was the reason? I couldn't figure it out.

Should I share this with someone?

I immediately decided that I shouldn't, as it just creates more chaos.

Until that moment, when people post sad videos, quotations on their social media accounts, I used to laugh at them and pity them for being such drama queens.

But that moment, my perception has changed and I started to reason to why people do that might be a cry out for help and I've decided to give it a shot and posted songs like 'Agar Tum Sath ho' and kept

' Channa mereya' as caller tune.

The response was unexpected, all the people I had criticized earlier for these things, instead of doing that back, starting chatting up and asking me what the fish has happened.

I felt elated and told them about my situation and they shared their own stories.

This continued and people kept asking me how I was feeling for a week and then again, I found myself in the same spot and understood that I opted for a temporary solution which depends on external factors, which was indeed a mistake.

I decided to fight my own war even though the enemy smirking at the opposite end is me again.