Run.
My legs shake.
Shout.
My throat quivers.
Cry.
My eyes flutter.
Fight.
My hands shiver.
I wish running away was an option.
I wish shouting out was a solution.
I wish crying loud was a choice.
I wish I had the strength to fight back.
I wish I had someone to turn back to.
I wish I had someone to tell me truth.
The bitter truth.
I wish people didn't lie.
Lie about everything being okay
Because everything isn't getting okay.
Because times aren't okay.
Because this is only getting harder.
And it kills me inside.
For not being able to do anything.
Nothing.
They say YOU hear everyone.
Do good for everyone.
But I am sorry
Am I not audible? Or
Am I not visible? Or
Is my pain not enough?
I don't believe in YOU anymore.
We aren't on terms anymore.
Because
I am SORRY.
But no one wants to be heard by you anymore.
The trick is to not mind.
Or
The trick is to numb out.
Zone out.
Just like,
Them
They love the numbing.
They love zoning out.
But,
Does that help?
Yes of course,
It helps.
But
The question is
Till when will it help?
Because,
You need to be numbed till infinity,
You need a constant zoning out,
Or
You need your own zone.
A whole new zone.
Where pain can no longer
Touch you,
Haunt you,
Swallow you,
No longer.
A whole new zone.
Or
The trick is to not mind.
Not mind.