The Chaos In Silence

It was a chilly night. I stood on the terrace embracing the calmness in the atmosphere. The tranquil moonlight fell on me and soft breeze kissed my cheeks. Everything around me was so calm and peaceful. I could strongly hear the sound of the horns , the rush in the streets , the temple bells ringing and the chirping of the linnets returning to their nests. Yet in everything silence dominated the serenity of the night.

While I gazed at the sky where the stars were shining in their full radiance and the moon looked as perfect as a ball of snow , something made my tears to fall. I couldn't understand the reason. I couldn't figure out the problem. All I could do was to look above and cry . There was a chaos in the silence inside me. Something strongly bothered me. I couldn't explain it in my words. It felt as if the words have lost their meanings. The Chaos inside me ripped me apart. It affected my every nerve. Neither can I understand , nor can I explain.

Nothing felt good and right. Everything proved to be an utter confusion and delimma. The more I tried to come out of it the more it drew me inside it. Life seemed so difficult and challenging. The more ahead it tried to move , the more it made me slip back. Things started to seem absolutely absurd and felt as if everything lost its meaning. It felt as if the entire world was mocking me, hurting me and was conspiring against me. I experienced a hurricane of emotions , which unfortunately failed to find a termination.

Now , my heart is heavy. Heavy with things I cannot comprehend. Even words fail today. I am tired and drained out . I am completely worn out. I have lost every tinge of strength and vigour.

Somethings in life are meant to be left on their own way. Fate and destiny is the master of all. No one can ever change them. Events and circumstances are the results and outcomes of your fate and destiny. Therefore it would be wise enough to leave things , emotions, feelings, circumstances and situations as they are so that it could slowly unravel itself in the future.

So here I let go of everything , hoping that the entire pandemonium will soon come to rest and once more , just for once , the river of peace will flow within me.