You Will Heal

Everything around you seems to be falling apart all at once and there is nothing you can do but be a witness to it. You never feared the extreme, but this, this is little too extreme to endure all on your own. You look around and there is no one to calm you down, to comfort you to sleep, to ease your pain. Panic begins to settle in like blood seeps into water slowly and fatally. And there is nothing you can do but be a witness to it all, again. You can barely get your eyes to open over all the thick tears but you somehow manage.

Looking at a knife, it feels like an escape 4 inches away, strangely your conscious agrees with you unlike before. Mind racing, you swallow your tears and let the red stain your arms. It doesn’t feel like punishing, it feels like tranquility. It gets you breathing properly. It strips your heart of the heaviness.

Personally, I consider it to be an illness. An illness that is just as terrifying and serve as psychological disorders like depression and unbearable anxiety. An illness that tempts a person into injuring his own body parts to release the overwhelming emotional pain. And the most dangerous part of it all is, the problem of addiction like caffeine or alcohol. Human beings do have a tendency to addictions of things that provide them pleasure, or help them in a certain way. And sadly, it is a fact that people consider harming themselves as a remedy to their personal distress.

Self- harm might seem to be strangely fascinating to some people now-a-days. Do not ever get into this trap. Once you do, getting out of it might be the hardest thing you would ever have to do. And for those who are suffering from this right know, I just want to you to know, that all you are doing is slapping on a Band-aid when what you really is stitches. It may temporarily stop the bleeding, but it doesn’t fix the underlying injury.

BREATH! Quieten yourself for a while. Put it all you have in yourself to stop the urge to harm yourself. Talk to a person with whom you get along the best because the words he says holds the power of healing.

You will heal. And you will be as happy as you ever can be, because you deserve it.