The Mysteries Of Suicides

You were my best friend, my only friend, my only support system ,my only constant..May I ask you how important I was to you????... Where I stood in your list, sadly I didn't saw myself on the top of your priority list ! Where I lied ? how important I was to you? I don't know. So many I don't knows! So many questions marks...so many blank faces...so many trembling hearts and the saddest part is I'm among them. You should have told me, you should have let me know what ate you up ,what made you to do this act.. Before committing this crime you should have called me,texted me,discussed with me.... I was there for you but you didn't considered me that important.. Yes that's what it means... What was the reason my friend? Why you ended up your precious life by yourself!

Why you left me with so many secrets yet none seemed worthier than your life. What circumstances you faced in just one day? What was the problem that you didn't shared? Was it more valuable than your life? I see now ,how successfully you were hiding something more valuable than your life from me. I regret not doubting you but you looked so perfect with that fake smile and bright heart and I horribly failed to recognize your scars! I knew some other version of you , the one who was never disappointed with his life ,the one who loved his parents to the core of his heart,the one who never quit ,but now I see your parents in tears ,shattered and distressed, they stand near your body, pale and almost dead just like you. And the queries in their eyes can't stop the fight. It wasn't a suicide. It wasn't for sure... You murdered yourself ,you murdered us too , and now we are half dead, half confused and a forever mystery to solve, what made you to do this? A question mark to carry on and we'll search for the answers in all whites and blues...What was the reason my friend, that I lost you ? You ended up with yourself for the sake of this worldly desires and possession,to commit yourself to the crime you never deserved to!

To end up like a victim and culprit with no clue.
What Made You To Do This ??? Is enough for me to go on in life and solve this mysteries of suicides!

~Roshni Namole