The Pause...

The first day college experience is always an unforgettable memory.It really wasn't like the one in those Harry potter movies with the professor giving the speech and the frenzy crowd being filled with excitement.. I was really eagerly waiting to get into college but all I saw was the same mono coloured walls which resembled none other than my school...Well there was one exception though, college had more rules to follow...Finally it was the first day and now comes the worst part "Self-intro session"...Most of them were filled with nervousness and they were stammering.This made me shiver.

So finally my turn came and I stood up, I was about to speak but...but...but...something struck my throat..words refused come out and finally after lots of pauses and stuttering I introduced myself and luckily I noticed the rest of them sitting there with the same nervousness ..Now I was satisfied...After all I'm not the only one..

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Let me make one thing clear, being an introvert is not my type.Trust me only the first day sucks because we tend to have very few glances.Later on I was equipped with a perfect squad..Time just flew, and now it was the same old college filled with memories.

All throughout it was the same intermittent stutter..

It was the last day, time to bid farewell and again I was askedto speak..This time I was completely blank.It was void, my voice never came out..It was not because I was scared or that I was nervous...just that I missed my college life so much ..something about me was still left there...That's when I realized, "I stammer not by seeing the crowd but because of my inner feeling which was much stronger than I ever imagined".....

For how long?? remains unsolved.. There are times when you have to face the worse, but actually at one point you'll be glad to have encountered it.. For your good, may be. You've been through hell and it's enough it's time to get bothered not over others needs but over what you really need to seek... If it really is a concern then it'll find you..else you move on..and that's how life shifts...

Long back it felt...was away from the reality..took some time to maintain the same composure...yet, again when even the slightest, flash before our eyes...the lingering gets deep..by deep I mean really deep that it's hard to stop wondering about why??Usually few decisions are made out of no choice...and finally we tend to meet with regret..Is the cause really you??or the influence??Listen to your heart so that you don't have to turn back, "again"...