Mystery Or Melancholy? - Part 3

Continued...

I was at loss of words, so I just nodded and sat near her bed. I was confused about what to say to her or how to say anything to her. I was scared about her screaming and feared another round of yelling, but it never came. She started humming a song which I was unable to place. Then she looked towards me and said,"You are a ghost aren’t you?”

Baffled by her answer, I shook my head to deny her allegation. She smiled, the smile looked dangerously sad and the eyes were full of tears. She said again,”Don’t get scared by me, I won’t yell. The creatures inside my head won’t speak up until a few hours.”

I asked her, “What creatures?”

She replied, “Those who tell me to die.”

Then she laughed, “I don’t believe their stories about me but sometimes I get fed up by the words ringing continuously in my head. I am unable to fathom a sentence from another. They just keep mixing with each other. The butterflies in the stomach won’t stop churning my intestines to the point I feel nauseated. I want to talk with someone but the judgemental looks from the people whom I have tried to tell hurts me from inside. I cannot bear to look into those judgemental and distrustful eyes and speak my mind out.”

This was the maximum I had ever heard her speaking and I was not going to make her shut up, I wanted to talk to her as well, I realised.

“Then tell me I won’t judge” said I.

“Yes, you won’t judge. Ghosts are not like people.” she repeated after me. “You know sometimes I feel as if I am falling into something. Most of the times, the fall is into a tube, straight and deep and dark, but sometimes I am falling into a constricting tube, the kind which keeps on tightening as I fall. I am unable to stop my fall and I choke on my own body.”

“It’s weird to hear someone talk like that, I have seen you walking from here day by day but never once there was a tube in which you fell. When did you think you fall into that tube” I replied

“I fall in that tube many times a day. I was screaming when I was falling today because I felt that someone will come and save me. You did come though.” she said.

“No, I didn’t. I did nothing, I was trying to hide from you but you saw me. I can understand the loneliness that has caused you all this stuff. I am alone too and sometimes I wish to scream in rage at the world that keeps rejecting their loved ones and people who love them for small pleasures like money, drugs etc.” I replied back honestly.

to be continued...