To my virtual love,

I know it's not okay.

I know it's not okay to not meet. I know it's not okay for you to not show me off to your friends. And I know it's not okay for us to not to do all the other things that regular couples do almost every day.

But you know what the sad truth is? It's the fact that there's nothing I can do about it.

I'm scared. I'm scared of you not loving me anymore once you see me. Once you see who I am, how I am, I'm sure you wouldn't like me, let alone love me. Let's face it. I'm not pretty. I'm not beautiful. I'm not anything like those skinny, fair, long-haired girls. I'm different. Don't get me wrong. I like who I am. I like to be different. I'm just afraid you won't.

The instant we meet, your whole perspective of me will change. I'm sure of it. And there's nothing I'll be able to do about it. Because I'm not what you think me to be. I'm not how you expect me to be. It's not right, I know. And I know it's not fair to you. But whatever I'm saying is the truth.

Please don't get hurt. It was never my intention to hurt you. It's me, not you. You have been awesome and great to me. You have loved me, supported me, been there for me and made me smile even in my darkest of days. You have done everything in your power to keep me happy. But I couldn't give you the same happiness you gave me and I can't promise that I'll be able to do so in the future.

Please don't get me wrong. I want to be with you. I want to go out on dates with you and have fun with you. I want to touch you, feel you, laugh with you and be there for you. Not just virtually, but physically as well. The only problem is I can't. I'm afraid of you not liking me let alone loving me after we meet. I can't take that chance cause I love the way you think of me and about me, now. I don't want that to change. Ever.

Please don't think that I don't love you. Cause I do. I really do. I love the idea of being with you and being loved by you. It's just that I know I'm not good enough and I know that I'll not be able to make you happy. And I don't want that for you. I want you to be happy. No matter what. Even if it is not with me.

From,

The girl who wishes she could give you more.

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Khusi Priyadarshini  •  4y  •  Reply
This made me cry a little. Great job❤️