Falling Out Of Love

A friend once gave me a golden advice to get rid of my stage fright.
Take a big piece of paper.
Write the words "COMFORT ZONE" on it.
Stand on it, stay there for a while and make yourself at home.
Then after a while - take a deep breath and step out of it.
This sounds like the lamest thing in the world but it worked?!?!?!!
I tried doing the same for falling out of love, but pfft I wish it was that easy!
Screaming into a pillow or on your face into the mirror doesn't help either.
Instagram is a bitch when you're heartbroken lemme tell you. And especially those mf stories.
Dude, I get it you're happy with your new girl but cut me a little slack? I'm having trouble breathing here still dreaming about those oh-so-dreamy eyes of yours.

The worst part is that I get mad at myself for feeling this way.
I feel trapped inside my own body and that makes me hate myself even more.
But guess what? Not gonna let that happen anymore.
Take this rant of a post as me falling out of love.
The love that I took care of like a little baby, protected it with all that I had because I was too scared to let it go.

The love that consumed every ounce of my soul.
The love you never had for me.
It's gonna take down getting used to, but I'll try to get rid of it. Get rid of you.
Get rid of the pain.
The pain, it's bittersweet.
Someone once told me, pain teaches you either negligence or lessons.
The pain of your love taught me a little bit of both.
I neglected myself by being stupid enough to think that you can ever feel even an ounce of what I feel for you.

I learnt a lesson that you don't always get what you ask for, you get what you deserve.
I deserve this.
The pain.
But not anymore.
I'm leaving behind all the pain there was, there is and there ever will be.
I'm leaving behind all the butterflies that followed me around every second of the day.
I'm leaving behind the gasps and the deep breaths you caused.
I'm leaving you behind.
I'm leaving behind the love.
I'm falling out of the love I voluntarily cartwheeled my way into.
Well atleast I'm trying to.