Imperfections

This wasn't easy for me..
Though I tried to save everything between us..
Every single possible approach was
like piercing knife through my heart...
Which left it bleed blue everytime..
I thought we could connect but
we failed to do that too...
I even thought this all torment is
going to end someday and you would
change..
And yes..
Certainly the changes came.. But
they were subjected on me..

Do you think it is easy to cry all
night long?
Craving for a single drop of care
and affection..
And I failed pathetically in every expectation..

Do you think it is easy to bleed the
heart and wear a mask for the world?
Pretending to be the perfect girl for some imperfectionist..

Do you think it is easy to dry up the tears from night and wear a

mysterious smile all day long?

Well it was not easy for me..
But by the span of time I developed
a habit to keep myself up for all
assaults everyday..

Maybe I was wrong all this time..
Why to blame anyone when you only have committed a crime?

The crime of falling in love
hopelessly with an enemy..

If I had known in first place that
your love was just a revenge I would never have fallen for you at all..

I didn't know that some day I would weeping in an empty, dingy, dark
room..
Cursing my fate..
Ripping my soul..
Crushing my heart..
Away from the pain your love gave
to me..